or so the diary says! .... but my be-fuddled brain couldn't handle that!
At 6:30 this morning, I was dreaming something ... and into the dream popped "Zoe ... airport" ..... I awoke in a panic .... (Naomi was at the hospital doing the midnight to 8am shift) .... I woke Kaylia and bundled her into the car ..... then I thought "If I've forgotten Zoe ... then I also forgot to pick up Tina yesterday!" !! .... more panic ... by this time we were getting toward Helena Valley ... quick - ring their mobiles! NO ANSWER! If they were at the airport they would have their phones on surely?
Now we were on Stirling Road (halfway to the airport) and it was slowly hitting my brain that there wasn't much traffic ..... I started thinking of Naomi's appointments that I'd have to postpone again .... then it struck me .... "Maybe this isn't Monday morning? Maybe it's Sunday?" Oh Duh! Turn around and drive home. Sorry Kaylia .... but maybe you liked the unexpected drive.
This gives you some idea of the state of our household at present! If I'm this bad, Naomi must be twice as bad .... she is under great stress and she is getting much less sleep than I.
You can infer from the above that Naomi's mum is still with us. No change there.
Later: Naomi has gone into the hospital to do the 8 to midnight shift. Kaylia has been showing today that she is being affected by the situation .... lots of anxiety type behaviours. This adds greatly to our stress ... these behaviours are hard to handle at the best of times.
We recently commented that it was good that Kaylia was shielded from it all by her autism (lack of empathy) ..... now we're not so sure .... because she lacks empathy, she doesn't perceive our stress and so she doesn't modify her behaviour.
Tina came home tonight after her NZ travels ... Kaylia was very happy to
see her. She's starting to believe me now when I tell her that Zoe is coming home.
Kerrrumbs! That is bad.
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